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Sunday, October 25, 2009

Happy Retirement!

This morning our family went to Open Bible Church to celebrate my Uncle Davids retirement. They held a good service and had a pretty yummy luncheon afterwards. It felt good to have most of our family together and to all be in church on such a beautiful Sunday morning. Though I wasnt in the greatest mood this morning I tried not to let that show. It was refreshing to get to see a few familiar faces there that I hadnt got to see in a while. Ive always loved the atmosphere a friendly church has to offer. So happy retirement Uncle David and Aunt Bonnie!

So tomorrows back to school, and a full week of it. Oh I cannot wait until Christmas time is finally here! I am going to school for Music Education and though I like most of my classes and love what I am there for, it does all get a bit tiring at times. Im going to take a little time off next semester and take a few online classes. I think this will be better for me, and give me a little time to breathe. Well..at least I hope so.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Aint life crazy?!

Wow, so I just got done reading my last blog (which was 9 months ago) and boy have alot of things changed for me! 9 months ago I was still in high school, and definately not expecting the curve balls life has thrown me. Since then I have started college t MTSU, found a wonderful man that truely loves me, and recently discovered that I will be bringing yet another addition to our steadily growing family into the world this coming May.

I look back on my last blog and recall how positive I was about life and all the changes I was sure it would bring. I can only hope that I will carry that same attitude for the next 9 months. Getting pregnant was definately not part of "the plan" but it has definately given me a new way of looking at life. It's all still a bit shocking and overwelming knowing I will soon be a mother. I still have people ask me all the time how I can be taking it so well. Considering my boyfriend Will and I havent really been together that long at all and I am only 18. I can only answer them with a question: How am I supposed to be "taking it"? Am I supposed to spend the next 9 months being depressed and hiding in shame? Well if so that definately not me. Ive always tried to look at the positive side of things. So yeah this might have been unexpected, but so are most blessing. And that is the way I choose to look at things. I stand by my life motto: everything happens for a reason. So Im going to have a baby..Theres certainly nothing I can do about it now. Theres no going back and changing anything. And to be quite honest, I dont think I would even if I could. I have faith that everything will work out for the best, and thats what Im going to cling to.

They tell you at church that God will not test you beyond your ability. Well I certainly hope their right. Because Im sure the next 9 months will be very testy for both me and Will. And yes, Im sure there will be people with lots of negativ things to say, but there will also be those with positive statements. So which will I choose to listen to? If you guessed the positive ones you were right. All of my family didnt take my news so well, and yes that saddened me a bit. I know it isnt what everyone wanted to hear, but I would have expected them to at least except it. And I can already tell Ill be losing some of those people I once called friends, and yes that hurts too. But then again it really comes to show who my true friends were all along.

I guess something like this really makes you realize alot of things. So Im going to be starting my family a bit sooner than predicted, thats life! Its cray and its constantly changing. It really is about the way you handle those changes that determines the outcome. So Im going to hold my head high. Im going to look at this as a blessing. Nobody ever said it would be easy, they only assured that it would be worth it!!!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

The end of life as i know it is coming. On May 22, 2009 i will walk across a stage, shake hands with the principle of our school, and be handed a piece of paper meant to signify everything i have worked so hard to accomplish over the past twelve years. Lately it seems that the end of my high school life and the introduction into a brand new world is dawning closer and closer...and to be completely honest, now that it finally is here, i dont really know what to think about it all. I was so ready to be a senior and so ready to graduate. And now the more i think about it, the more i try clinging to the memories, and holding on to what is left of my time here. And even though it is a bit depressing, thinking about how different things will be for me at this time next year, it's also a bit exciting. Who knows what the future will bring. Of course I plan on going to college, and getting a better job, and embracing the changes life will bring. But thats just it! It's all left to chance! Anything could happen, and to me..thats the fun part. No plans, no structure, no knowing exactly what i will be doing in everyday of every week. To me, life isn't suppossed to be all planned out and..boring. It's about changes, and suprises, and just learning how to take what life gives you and be happy with it. I may not be old, or wise, or someone people choose to
come to for advice. And i may not share all the experiances many people go through as they get older and begin growing into these "mature adults". But in the time I've been given i believe ive learned alot about how to just make the best out of things...and in the end, isnt that what its really all about? Ive learned that things may not always go your way, and you definately cant control everything. You cant control every situation, and every circumstance. You cant make people believe things they choose not to see. And you cant help someone who doesnt want to be helped. I believe in fate. And i believe that everything happens for a reason. Ive learned that even when everything in the world seems wrong, and you feel helpless, like giving up all claim to any shread of hope that may arise...dont. Life has alot of sink or swim moments. But its not about those moments, its about the outcome. Its about how the passion in how bad you want something, and how far you're willing to go to get it. Its about believing in dreams, and never giving up. And thats the way i look at life, and the way i live mine.
~Looking at the world with a smile~
~Bree =]~

Monday, January 5, 2009

Blogging virgin=devirginized

Hi! Im Mamie ~aka~ BreeAnn, and this is my first blog =] Now im not really sure how these things work, so i figured id just start out by telling all you readers a little bit about myself. So ill start with the basics. I rocked the birthday suit on November 17th. I am freshly 18 and so happy to say that i am finally legal! I realize now that I began waiting on that day way too early, but now that is has come and gone i am left feeling nothing less than extremely relieved. I am currently finishing out my senior year in high school and 102% ready for graduation. I made the move from florida to tennessee about a year and a half ago, and i must say that it has been by far the biggest change i have ever come to meet. I have three sisters and one brother that i absolutely adore and would do anything for. I currently live with my dad and step-mother who I have come to love more than breathing! I am proud to say i have the greatest friends anyone could ever ask for. Relationships are hard for me to build, simply because i find it incredibly hard to trust people. As to those i do trust: they mean the world to me. They are my rock and my security. Singing is my passion. Its something ive always been very interested in and something i plan on making a career, not just a hobby. The feeling I get when i sing is unlike anything else. Im a pretty happy person. I love my life and embrace it in all its uncertainties. I am by no means perfect, but i hold no regrets. Every mistake ive made is apart of me, and has made me who i am today. And thats someone i am happy to say im very content with. Well thats about it...other than im very long-winded. (obviously the most apparent of my qualities)
Until next time
~Bree~