The Rest of My Forever

The end of life as i know it is coming. On May 22, 2009 i will walk across a stage, shake hands with the principle of our school, and be handed a piece of paper meant to signify everything i have worked so hard to accomplish over the past twelve years. Lately it seems that the end of my high school life and the introduction into a brand new world is dawning closer and closer...and to be completely honest, now that it finally is here, i dont really know what to think about it all. I was so ready to be a senior and so ready to graduate. And now the more i think about it, the more i try clinging to the memories, and holding on to what is left of my time here. And even though it is a bit depressing, thinking about how different things will be for me at this time next year, it's also a bit exciting. Who knows what the future will bring. Of course I plan on going to college, and getting a better job, and embracing the changes life will bring. But thats just it! It's all left to chance! Anything could happen, and to me..thats the fun part. No plans, no structure, no knowing exactly what i will be doing in everyday of every week. To me, life isn't suppossed to be all planned out and..boring. It's about changes, and suprises, and just learning how to take what life gives you and be happy with it. I may not be old, or wise, or someone people choose to
come to for advice. And i may not share all the experiances many people go through as they get older and begin growing into these "mature adults". But in the time I've been given i believe ive learned alot about how to just make the best out of things...and in the end, isnt that what its really all about? Ive learned that things may not always go your way, and you definately cant control everything. You cant control every situation, and every circumstance. You cant make people believe things they choose not to see. And you cant help someone who doesnt want to be helped. I believe in fate. And i believe that everything happens for a reason. Ive learned that even when everything in the world seems wrong, and you feel helpless, like giving up all claim to any shread of hope that may arise...dont. Life has alot of sink or swim moments. But its not about those moments, its about the outcome. Its about how the passion in how bad you want something, and how far you're willing to go to get it. Its about believing in dreams, and never giving up. And thats the way i look at life, and the way i live mine.
~Looking at the world with a smile~
~Bree =]~